when everything seems so weary
i sit at my window pane
looking at the grass sway so freely,
and the flowers blooming gracefully

and when i look back at my stack of work
i feel like giving up
but the world won't let me
what have i done?
to receive this.

deadlines come pouring in
but nothing is complete,finish
i feel so useless-helpless

2 months away,
i sit here
looking at the blank space
at the corner of my room
misery comes pouring in
show me mercy
let me rest

one to ten
chapters of equations
definition

as a child
years of mundane
when i gaze down my little window
little children
may they be naive and innocent
but they have the joy and fun i long to have

why is it only pain remain, and tears stay
i have miss too much
and forget too many
to talk of these childhood tales

16 years, going on 17
another phase after 4 years
is these all we live by
just
what is life?

meaningless,selfish and full of hatred,pain

however, life may be mean
tyrannical
but of faith
i look to him for wisdom and strength
he who has salvage me from past miseries
will again, not forsake me
but of love,
give me comfort and company

i want to play
i want to smile
with truth and happiness

i want my friends
i want GOD

i want to come home