went to my paternal grandma house to have reunion dinner yesterday.it was ok.just some normal dinner.just with more people...when i was on my way to my grandma house, i recieved a super mega big heart attack...ok.this is the whole story...
[1]got off the car
[2]was walking across a void deck
[3]saw 2 cats mating(i am naming it meow-female, mee-male)
[4]meow saw us
[5]ran away
[6]mee was pissed and angry
[7]so there was this stillness between us and the cats
[8]meow was following me wherever we walked to..for dunno wad reason
[9]mee was super duber piss
[10]ran forward to meow..
[11]i freaked out as i thought it was running towards me(wanting to attack me)
its gonna be gross from here onwards...
[12]mee grab meow and humped on her
[13]meow struggle
[14]mee bite her
[15]mee force himself into her...(you know what i mean..)
[16]meow wail
[17]mee just continued
[18]meow looked petrified
[19]i was horrifiedly disgusted
[20]i screamed at the sight of it
[21]ran to my grandma's house.still screaming
[22]ran into my aunts room.still screaming
[23]i couldnt calm myself at all
[24]my parents said my reaction was too big and laughed
[25]they said that it was just that meow got raped by mee
[26]i was once again disgusted!!!
[27]the end

ok..i know its kinda sick...it was sickening.if you were there with me...you will know what i mean..even my dog who was there was freaked out that it ran away..luckily my sis caught her..
even though i studied about it..you know...in sec2..
but seeing it first hand on an ANIMAL.was enough.ENOUGH!!it totally blew me away..
my mum even said that i must never get married.which i totally agree.just imagine...ahhhhhh.omgosh!!sick!sick!
ok i think thats all for yesterday.gotta go for my another reunion dinner with my maternal side..

" i never wanna say goodbye"

do you not know that i care?
why live in self-denial
do you know that everyone cares for you
living in your stubborn world
blocking everyone from you inner world
i understand your change
but do you not understand you have change
why live in persistant

you think you have been pranked
played around
but be glad that its over
a burden off your shoulder
is that not what you have wanted
but now you are sad
that it is no longer by your side
its contradicting, ironic
what do you really want?
i will accept it

do not be broken down
by the voice of the world towards you
live life to the fullest
for you know
when you really fall
i will be around to pick you up
prove them wrong
for you know what is right
dont feel hopless
or useless
because you are not
but something that you choose to be
you can change
believe in yourself

i am sorry
for being neglectant towards you
i did not know what to do
but now i am here to apologise
i am sorry
i do not want to lose you
my best friend