I am
I will
and forever

be missing you


R.I.P

I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus

-Philippians 3:14

As long as you live on, there is HOPE

-Jia En

I don't know how to explain, but i got the answer to my birthday wish.

Harry Connick, Jr.- A wink and a smile




I remember the days
of just keeping time
of hanging around in sleepy towns, forever
Back roads empty for miles
well you cant have a dream
and cut it to fit
but when I saw you, I knew
we go together, like a wink and a smile
Leave your old jallopy
by the railroad track
we'll get a hip, double dip, tip toppy, 2 seat pontiac
So you can rev her up
don't go slow
It's only green lights and alright
let's go together with a wink and a smile
(Instrumental)
Give me a wink and a smile
(Instrumental)
We go together like a wink and a smile
Now my heart is music
such a simple song
singing again, the notes never end
this is where I belong
Just the sound of your voice
the light in your eyes
Your so far away from yesterday
Together, with a wink and a smile
We go together, like a wink and a smile.





Lovin' this song.Lovin' Jazz. Ich mag Jazz musik:D



P.S I Love You-<3 this movie

It is a gripping pain i cannot put into words. Mental over physical, i have since lost who i used to be. Everything just seems to be brushing past me, or deflected away like a repelling magnet. While everyone are in search of the light of life, it seems that the surge and ambition i once had has then vaporize to just air. So insignificant, but omnipresent, haunting me to get it back. Where was the hunger and craving i once had, the greed, the selfishness i once had. While the people i once shared my innocence have then all walk away and found their path,i find myself stagnant at the same spot, feeling self-pity. The drive and motivation i once shared back then, was of so much encouragement and joy, now it is just like painful towing and resent. Many promises made are broken, taste of insurmountable regret. Many a times, we hear but we do not listen the actual need, we do senseless stuff, or trying so hard to be someone else to fit in. Hypocrites. Losing something to feel the pain, realising its need to notice its presence, missing you to realise how much i belittle you in the past. I need you, all of you, do you hear me?

I am sad, i want to cry, i want to be someone i can say i am me. I want my friends back, i want the happiness i once shared with the people. I want how i was like in the past. I want to laugh out loud, cry out loud, own myself. Tell you my darkest secrets, tell you my silent crush, tell you how my day was, tell you everything, because you were just so near. Whether i use to dislike you, hate you, i want you back-now. I need you.

Sometimes, things are just taken for granted because they are within reach. Once, you realise that joy needs an effort to reach, that is the pain. Unbearable pain. The pain of lost.

Absence do makes the heart fonder/ache and finally feel the worth of it all. Feel the need.

Beethoven's Love letter to his beloved immortal

Good morning, on July 7th
Even when I am in bed my thoughts rush to you, my eternally beloved, now and then joyfully, then again sadly, waiting to know whether Fate will hear our prayer--To face life I must live altogether with you or never see you. Yes, I am resolved to be a wanderer abroad until I can fly to your arms and say that I have found my true home with you and enfolded in your arms can let my soul be wafted to the realm on blessed spirits--alas, unfortunately it must be so--You will become composed, the more so as you know that I am faithful to you; no other woman can ever possess my heart--never--never--Oh God, why must one be separated from her who is so dear. Yet my life in V[ienna] at present is a miserable life--Your love has made me both the happiest and the unhappiest of mortals--At my age I now need stability and regularity in my life--can this coexist with our relationship?--Angel, I have just heard that the post goes every day--and therefore I must close, so that you may receive the letter immediately--Be calm; for only by calmly considering our lives can we achieve our purpose to live together--Be calm--love me--Today--yesterday--what tearful longing for you--for you--you--my life--my all--all good wishes to you--Oh, do continue to love me--never misjudge your lover's most faithful heart.

ever yours
ever mine
ever ours


I simply adore the last three stanza.

This came to my attention, after watching to Sex and the City, for the SECOND TIME. The show is quite an awesome show, simply love the 4 girlfriends, they sure portray friendship really well:D However might the title may provoke whatever is in your mind right now, please come back into my main stream of thoughts and not think waywards

Love can be awesome, but it can also be meeting face to face with fatality
As much it can make you, it can destroy you, leaving with you bits to even imagine

Love never fails, Love is true, Love's the one thing that can always change you

Love is kind
Love is beautiful

Everything has its 2 faces, it depends on which side you choose to see





Pudding on her prada

Pig says to dog: Hey, i bet you will be killed in Vietnam and China, they will slaughter you in the most painful way (said senselessly)

Dog says to the pig: Don't worry, i bet you wouldn't even have a chance to even get on that airway, because you will be killed just here in Singapore,or in fact every part of the world.Your head in China, ribs in USA, and your knuckles in Germany, your meat in Singapore.

Imagine this as 2 person saying it-they were comparing their zodiac, maybe i ain't that good in putting into words, but you get my drift-hopefully

Today could/must/would have been the worst day i have ever experience within 24 hours. I was yet again insulted/criticized/demoralised by Queen Evil herself-my piano teacher.
So, my exams are in 4 weeks time, and this really is seriously BAD-hopefully it does not coincides with my IPC Exam,or else i am dead meat, i guarantee you.
What an awful opening to a new day, it just went free fall all the way.

I redo my stupid IPC graph 7 times,so as to get it all perfect(at least). Omgosh, it must have been the most mind-boggling thing i have ever done.

Exams are coming, and i am seriously scared, like scared is the only word to describe the situation NOW. Got some really serious warning from my folks already,OH MAN.

Report of my wrist:

okay, so after much resistance, i had no choice but to drag myself to see the doctor today. Went to see a chinese sensei at Eu Yan Seng. It seems to be some nerve overstretch(thanks to that forehand snap!) , and it may take a long time to heal. Primarily, because i did not seek medical attention IMMEDIATELY. Omgosh, i AM SAD. No tennis, i am sad. I think i will just do with running and skipping now:) All (right)hand movement must be kept at its minimum, please quickly heal, I AM almost half crippled.

I can barely even type properly, hold things, write, or even play piano. This is really sad and bad. (I had to eat chinese medicine too. 15 packets=3 times a day, OH NO)

I miss Tim. Although he has just left for Germany not more than 24 hours ago. He has been such a awesome big brother. Love his company!Although we have not seen each other for the past 8 years, but the bond we share is still so strong, no sense of awkwardness, or behaving like strangers,much more than some who i see almost everyday, or all the time.

8 years of 0 connections, isn't amazing that we manage to find each other from each end of the world, and still share so much laughter and fun together:)

Although deep down, there will be sadness, but i am definitely happy you have never forgotten us. Visit us more often.

PS.when i am legal, you can bring beer. I will beat you for Jenga!!! I will throw you in the pool!!! (Your room and funta grape will always be here waiting)

Love,
Hwee Min, Hwee Xian, Hwee Jia, and Mummy and Daddy:)

Beautiful [adjective/noun]

[meaning]
it is when you look into the mirror, and say "i am good". That is beautiful.

What are the element(s) of being a cool person?

It is when you live like yourself, behave like yourself, and be yourself. Laugh out loud when you are feeling good, and cry it out when you are sad. When you look at the mirror and say " I like what i see: this is me"

A Bitter Sweet Day

Is childishness a trend?It has been a tiresome day yet again. Although it has been only 3 days since school actually started. I think the childishness is really getting on my nerves, like come'on people, get a life and grow up! If you actually think that it is funny or cool, or just being spoilt or pampered, let me tell you, it has reached the point of you being a ridicule and a total brat.

You are not fit enough to love others, for you have yet to even understand yourself and understand the people around you.

I went to school as usual at 9, it was an appointment for 4 to meet at the library. However, only 2 appeared,yours truly, and Qinyi. Reggie had a bad food poisoning (forgiven:D), so he did not come. Qinyi and i then went on with our projects and work. We talked a lot, like there were many things that we were so frustrated about (pointless frustration), so we needed to clear the air, but to no avail. We studied till about 11.15am, then packed up and head down to Bukit Timah Plaza to hunt for the Gatorade bottle needed for LSCT training later on. OMGOSH, we went to many many places, especially at Cold Storage at KAP. They had the fat,slim,tall,sucker tip,and even powdered form, just not the one we needed!!! Ok, it was frustrating, but thankfully, JIAJIA came to the rescue, by telling us we could find it at SHELLS:D:D THANK YOU!!

Microbio practical was cancelled, so did physio lecture at around 1pm. So, school today mainly composite of a 2 hour long lecture with Ms Boring Queen. She is the bomb, sometimes i think that someone needs to recommend her another job, everything else but a TEACHER! She is just reading off some other lecturer's slide, reading directly from the slide, and worst of all, i think there is this major problem about her getting her chemistry concept right??!!argh!

So the day is mainly just, like that. There is really nothing to talk about, and maybe i am not that an expert with words, it's hard to type it out sometimes (like having the tense emotion and stuff). I need to rant at someone, whoever that is so unlucky:D










Give me a break. Please

Byebye horsy:D She's the man:D