a wOrLd oF MiSeRy

today just suckks.badly.teachers' day celebration today is just so lame and a waste of time.it dreaded for so long that it went 1 hour over time.ACES day is just some retarded event.did some rather stupid movement.'clanging' our metal utensils together with the beat.ok after that, went with iqah to sim ai's to watch some vcds.i think we watch like 5 disc consecutively. iqah was like melting cause there was this cute guy in the drama.haha.left at around 245pm??when i went back home.dunno wads the freakin problem with my mum, she started confronting me with everything.past and the present.some examples are my results(as usual), my attitude.blah.she practically turned my whole mood upside down.unreversable again..i was like literally shouting at her.she is just simply UNREASONABLE!!was very very upset. cursed a little.like swearing that i will prove her wrong and if i do she will not get any of it...blahblah. i was really so angry and piss that my emotions have already run over my head completely.i was just blurting everything that i could.out of anger.after a while,i couldnt stand it.took my bag and rush to my room and slam the door.i was really 'cant-be-bothered' with anything.i was just not in a mood to do anything.so obviously the next thing i did was to cry..i cried like shit.tried calling 2 person.2 calls no reply.my mood rate was just beyond measures.too low.no replies made my whole mood just like the rate scale of a stock market that is dropping really rapidly.its very hard for my mood to be like better..i taste the feeling of being lost:left all alone, even your darkest moment. with no one to lean on.just feeling helpless and hopeless.
it just sucks.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
no mood to type any longer.for the moment.i am practically untouchable.i need to chill badly.

were you there when i was feeling helpless and hopless??no.
were you there when i was feeling lonely??no.
were you there when i felt that the world is crumpling on me??no.
were you there when i needed you the most??no.
then where were you??

Family Gathering


haha today is a dam hilarious day.went swimming today.as usual.when my dad went to park his car.his parking skills are not really that superb so we gotta sort of direct him.then my paranoid sister was like STOP STOP..in fear that we would hit the car behind. than she marched out of the car.went next to the boot to like measure the distance between our car and the other car behind ours..than.here comes the hilarious part.she was like(at the same time measuring the gap)OMGOSH OMGOSH!!LOOK AT THE GAP???!!...then at this time..someone came along. it was the owner of the other car.he look at my then moronic/paranoid sister like she was a complete idiot.then when my sister saw him.she was like stoned there.i was like already laughing my ass out..hahaha..my sister was like blushing like crazy and went screaming away. this made me laugh till i ache..haha.what a moronic/paranoid sister i've got..hahahaha.ok so lets talk about my swimming experience today.saw a lot of posers.as usual.my mum finally came down to swim with us.yay.after so many weeks of persuasion.haha.swam 12 laps today.whoa.it was tough.it was long long long ago since i swam so many laps.i think to be exact, the last time i swam so many laps was when i was primary 5, swimming 16 laps for the silver award or certificate you call it..that was like 4 years ago??!!
ok.everything else was normal.nothing really big or weird that could excite my curiousity hormones.so thats all for my swimming experience..haha.
thats all i got to write.await my next post=D

love is meant for everyone. grab it and hold it tight. or else you will lose it and regret eternally

Dedicated to the one that never knew i was never all along treating you that way ever before.

Never treated you as a friend
but someone else.
You never knew,
but you just slip me by.
maybe you never knew i exist
but i am always by your side.

my words may be hurting,
never meant it.
a text no reply
excuses that you were on the phone
i wish i could pardon
not once nor twice
its the pain you never knew

my thoughts were beyond yours
but you just lived in your boundaries
misery and pain overwhelmed me
you never knew
but its all shelled within me

to bring myself to you
its a trauma i could not take
please forgive me
i could only wish you were there
yet the pain so deep
left all alone
but to just smile through it...

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

A------OF-------------------EVENTS
-SERIES---UNFORTUNATE

For the past few days, it sucks.Things. in fact many things. happened..almost died.
here is a list of them..
[1] stupid/blur me went to put the microwave glass bowl on the stove and because it was overheated..it EXPLODED..whaaaa...i was like freaking close to it.i would have died or even getting a major cut in my eye..thank God for letting me live another day.phew..
[2] i accidentally stepped on one tiny piece of glass from that already-exploded bowl..pain.pain.had to use come clipper to remove it..ahh...
[3]went bongus(did i spell it correctly??) because i am just filled with thoughts of something that is just gonna drive me nuts..ahh.so, to release that thought..i was like walking around the house.up and down. like an idiot.save me..
[4]had this come-and-go headache on the left of my head..when it strikes.please bless me with painkiller..

i think thats all that had happened for the past few days..but as for today.its gonna be the worst day of my entire life..
[1]3 tests consecutively non-stop.brain cells killer
[2]got back chinese compo results.it just sucks..got to buck up like crazy.

the worst today..is still the tests..whoa.its a killer.recess was also dragged back because of it..hmmph..history is a definite fail..not enough time to finish.As for lit..hopefully i did not went out of point..Chinese compo.i think my brain cells are already dead.no inspiration.so just some crap in it..ahh..overall..today was a tiring day for me..no energy at all.i think its because of my bongus act last night..sigh.sickness are also chasing up with me.had a slight sore throat..must have gotten it from gloria..flu, headache and also muscle ache..God please heal me..sigh.

talking about some stuff on what we are gonna do for halloween day with wee,iqah and abii..
wee wanted like some pyjamas party..and we were like asking her.how old are you??14?maybe not..i rather it be some gothic party..than we could invite people..not like there is anyone going to come for a pyjamas party??!!right. ok

history lesson today had this weird tense atmosphere..i think ms h. is pmsing.she look kinda of work up/agitated.she was like shouting her lungs out through out the whole lesson..

oh yah..during LIVE, pls i think thats ms t. is dam dam thick skin..she actually request a present from me just because i am her angel..in actual fact.i cant even be bothered to look up on anything for her..so ms t. just dream on..haha..ms t. pls also take note of wad you say.your words can be hurting and after all you are our elder(dont feel like saying teacher..) so just some minimum amount of respect for us pls..pls.think before you open that mouth of yours!

yupyup..not to forget another thing..during recess..ms iqah actually blurted out some forbidden stuff that made abii went hysterically high..but in the end it was even..abii,wee and iqah..you all should know why..haha..we were just talking about stuff.stuff that is rather entertaining..haha.

reporting next test:Math
hope that ms l. does not make it too hard.but i doubt it would be easy cause her expression has given her away...got to start mugging.

thats all.long and lengthy..

-why do you have to surpass me like a stranger..

today was a really hilarious day.
one fine day.i am going to die in my ever-so-joking class..haha
-math was fine-plainly just revision
-english was fine too-got back our compre test paper..quite a shock
-IT -the one i hate-is a killer.abii,wee and me had to redo it like 5 times but it seems that it will NEVER turn out right.ARGH!
-Art was a killer-everyone was using black marker.and you know the smell that it releases..very VERY polluting!!almost fainted because of the smell.it was simply OVERWHELMING..AHH!!

tomorrow is gonna be an ultra short day.ending at 8.45. wednesday and thursday-break.friday will be the day that our horror awaits..2 TESTS...lit & history..consecutive 2 periods.my brain cells would have died by that time..ahh!!SAVE ME..

got to go..leaving my post short and sweet..

-since that day, not long ago, you are already part of my memory