This is how my mind feels like now ___________. An absolute blank!
2 weeks and it is hard to imagine how time really flies, but nevertheless, i am getting really jiggly and excited about seeing (some of) my friends in school.

Life is just so oxymoronic,so ironic, so contradicting. Or i should say pretentious. It seems that people are living under masks and society under some kind untold truth. Ever had a good laugh, and then feeling empty. Had a good cry, but not feeling any better? A fight that seems pointless, or a relationship that sees no end? A misunderstanding from foolish thought, or a mission with no purpose.

Maybe this is what life is all about, you got to take a break from the outside whole and think. Stop and think, stop and reflect. I have seen sadness, happiness, seperation, make-ups, breakups and anger. Are those real, or made up to shield/cover up one's own true feeling.

Even though it has been only a mere 10 weeks i have entered NP, i think i have seen quite a lot, sometimes, too much of it. Its getting so complicated that it makes me stress over pointless opinions. Tomorrow going to mark the beginning of yet another 7+ weeks, what else is there expecting me?

I think for now, i just got to submerge myself with my studies, no other thing will be able to distract me. I don't want the same thing to happen again, as what it has before.This time,i am sure of it.

TIM IS BACK:D I'M HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYY:D

it has been like maybe 7-8 years since we all last met. He will be here for 12 days, at my house!!!HAPPYHAPPY:D:D.

Okay the sad part of today, will and always be piano lessons. Oh, how i dread Fridays, they slaughter me alive. The day where you will experience most insults, most scolding, most stupid, and most feel like want to die!! That devil (my teacher) sure can bring my moral downdowndown, each and everytime. My exams are in perhaps 2 months, and my playing still sounds like shit, like literally rubbish as she puts it. Damn, i must be a crazy 3-year-old when i said i wanted to learn the piano,and from then it has been almost 13 years since piano has entered my life and turn it upside down inside out:(

I really do not see myself surviving grade 8, really grade 7 is really ripping me apart. Aside from piano, i still have manymanymany to commit to. I need to have more practise time so as to reduce some percentage of scolding-no matter what, scolding sure will come:( Now, she wants me to practise midnight with the soft pedal=no more excuse to say no time. She sure knows how to squeeze out every second of my day!!

Sometimes, i do think that the 2 years to come will be a hair-pulling time:( Many things are coming full speed at my face and i am really in a struggle in juggling them all at one time. And yet ironically, none can be sacrifice, they all stand at my no.1 priority!So as much as my TV has been eaten up, there goes my social life, and all that fun, maybe even my SLEEPING TIME, will be jeopardise:( Oh man, no more 48 hours marathon, it is crazy.

So school is starting in 2 days, which just shows how fast time really flies. 2 weeks is seriously not enough. I still have maths(mol), German(letter), IPC (Project) and Microbio(editing) to do. Hopefully i can crash them all within 2 nights!!!

My term 2 outline-i should really camp in school (These are the times i end school)

Monday-5pm
Tuesday-9pm (Tennis)
Wednesday-should be around 9pm too (LSCT Society)
Thursday-8pm (German)
Friday-9pm (Tennis)

Saturdays will be burnt out for homework and maybe Sunday, will be my off day or to complete work that are undone:(

Wish me all the best man! I seriously can't wait for the term to end and the month long break to come( i think i must be crazy, the term has yet to START!!!)

I'm a happy person:D:D

Finally got some proper camera! No more phone camera-it causes my phone to hang( imagine 1000 photo in it!!) MY FIRST SEMI-PROFESSIONAL CAMERA!!!WOWOWWOWWOW!!i cant stop smiling to myself:D Although i was contemplating with the other compact model because i hear it so often over the radio, but i think the one i bought is so much cooler and CHEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPP. It is dam cheap, seriously, for a camera of such calibre:D I think i will still save up for my CANON BABEH! Now , this will be some tool for me to get use to its functions and stuff:D:D

ok, after so much, i seriously need to get work done, it's compiling upupup!! I freakin' had a slight sprain on my wrist, it hurts shit, i swear, and i got 2 hours of hell(piano) tomorrow, oh man, wish me luck, i seriously need it:(:(

i think my holiday is officially burnt out:( Other than the fact that i can sleep late and wake up late, i think thats the definition of a holiday.

15/06/09(Mon)-which is today. I'm suppose to go out to hand out something, but decided to do it tomorrow, too lazy and tired:(

16/06/09(Tues)-Training at 6-9pm;head down to Tank's road before that

17/06/09(Wed)-LSCT Training

18/06/09(Thurs)-TEMPORARY NOTHING

19/06/09(Fri)-Piano from 10-12pm(Horror movie), and family time:D:D(Kangxi exhibition+Da Vinci Exhibition+Dim sum near Jurong Bird Park(yay!))(i think i will skip training:X)

20/06/09(Sat)-TEMPORARY NOTHING(but most probably have to go visit aunt at hospice and maybe do a little bit of shopping)+homework day

21/06/09(Sun)-TEMPORARY NOTHING/sleeping day

22/06/2009(Mon)-Mariz Birthday PARTYYYYY

23/06/2009(Tues)-Training from 6-9pm

24/06/2009(Wed)-LSCT Meeting

25/06/2009(Thurs)-Clique Picnic:D

26/06/2009(Fri)-Piano+Training+TIM'S BACK:D:D

27/06/2009(Sat)-TEMPORARY NOTHING

28/06/2009(Sun)-TEMPORARY NOTHING

As much as you can see that there are many many TEMPORARY NOTHING. But, i have yet to fill in the following:

[1]IPC project
[2]Microbio project-HIV/AIDS
[3]German letter to my teacher
[4]Math revision
[5]Piano drilling
[6]IPC Revision(it's already dead, i need to revive it:x)
[7]Microbio Revision (Charmaine said it)
[8]A little Physio revision-just to not let it escape from my brain
[9]Visit my aunt

Many many many things to do, i think i will go napping now:D, i'm tired, wo hen lei!

I swear today is the best day ever,in my life.I feel appreciated for once:D
Thanks all, namely:
[1]Qinyi
[2]Reggie
[3]Yeele
[4]Jasmine
[5]Soon Keong (SK)

Love all you guys<3

We did the wackiest thing, nothing that you could ever imagine- we made the guys wear makeup:P/made qinyi and yeele dance chacha somewhere outside hilton and we were just a bunch of crazy little earthlings that were scampering around

THANKS A BUNCH FOR THE SURPRISE:D:D I have to admit that i was really shock, like FIRST TIME kinda of thing:D:D THANK YOU VERY MUCH, ESPECIALLY TO YEELE AND REGGIE WHO HAVE HAD A HARD TIME TO FIND THE CAKE:D Ok, as much as i dislike coffee, i will eat the cake up for you guys(i still have 2 slices in the fridge). Thank you, really very very very very very much for the entire surprise,im sure it took a lot of effort to get things all planned( however i have to admit i am quite dumb myself:D). Thank you all, LOVE YOU PLENTY:D

Stupid Reggie, just heard something super ridiculous, actually not that bad la, just a tinge of jealousy:DHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Hallelujah, finally Microbio is gonegonegone. It was okay , except for some part that i completely screwed up:( Math tomorrow babeh:D and im lovin' it

okay, now is 1.41 am, and apparently,i am still awake. I'm turning in real soon, but just a quick update:D

Ms Ting and Mr Loh's wedding of the century. Ok,i was lost on my way there, but thankfully, my Dad was around:D So we search through the map and had to make this huge detour,argh! But luckily, i wasn't late:D It's my second time, for the record at a church wedding, sweet:D Met up with some 4b1s, Miss them A LOT!!!LOVE YA<3 Jasmine is still the same, always saying that i talk to myself.HAHAHA. I miss girls' school man:D:D Okay, i have to admit that Ms Ting really looked super pretty, maybe because of the newly constructed set of teeth(braces), and maybe alot slimmer. It was a sweet little ceremony, but with some really mushy add-ons, such as Mr Loh singing to Ms Ting(obviously, that got her all emotional and stuff). It's amazing really, 2 teachers that i have known so dearly as my form teacher in sec 3 and my tennis-in-charge super supportive teacher. I am truly grateful to have known both of them, especially Mr Loh, who has been the most supportive during the times when i was in the tennis team(many things happen, but he was SUPERDUPERDUPER encouraging), THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!

I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate them on their matrimony. I pray that they will find companionship with each other, and may everlasting love flow in them(taken from the pastor:D).Congratulations from the bottom of my heart:D

CT next week, and i swear that it has already sucked up 80% of all my brain juices. Microbiology,Math,Physiology, and then IPC. Damn, i can't wait for FRIDAY, so much to celebrate:[1] No piano=hallelujah, i swear she is the only teacher i fear[2]NO CATS=more life;cats=wasting life[3]END OF CT.

Seriously, i feel like i am living o-levels(or even worst) every single day. Maybe because o-levels was just peanuts to all the lecturers in my school. Except than the part i had to abstain myself away from all entertainments and sit at one corner of my house(during o levels), now, i have to study EVERY SINGLE DAY, and the best part is, NEARLY EVERYWHERE. On the train, in the bus, before i sleep, when i'm eating, in the car. Honestly, the only time i DO NOT study is when i am sleeping, hmm, actually to think about it, i think i even do dream about what i study!!seriously. My life is pathetic or maybe just plain mundane and boring.I need to bring some colour in my life:D

Apart from the physical and mental stress my academics are already pouring out to me, family side hasn't been too well either. Seeing the critical conditions that my aunt is in, my heart really goes out to her. Although now, its just a matter of time, but i hope that she will be happy and painless. I pray that although everything that can be humanly done has been done, i hope that GOD can perform a miracle and change the situation all around. It's too soon for her to go. I see my mum and my aunts, especially popo, struggling to hold back the truth, it hurts to see them like that.I am sad.

Part-ner

[noun]

a person who shares or is associated with another in some action or endeavor; sharer; associate.

Thesaurus: Friends

In simple english, [helping] each other out whenever they are in need. Partners WORK together.









do you know that? Too late, time out

Don't even come close to me, i'm afraid i will bite.

I f-freaking screwed up my ipc practical. My day is ruin