It's all coming to an end, I know it's going to get better.

I want it all to go back to point zero. You get what i mean, i am going to be stubborn, and i say i want it NOW.
I want to make those choices again.

 

When life throws you a lemon, make it a lemonade

She told me these words, i remember so vividly, when i was opening the sms on my way for drawing lesson outside Victoria School at the bus stop. I was smiling to myself. She gave me the opening of it,i could not understand. So i replied with something of absolute ridicule, but as life moved on for both of us, these words are so true.

This girl, she is incomparable to anyone, like my family members, she stands on the same level. She is my partner, one that could mince every inch of that meaning of being one. She is always there for me and we go through all, thick and thin, bitter and sweetness together. We share everything, literally. We were always side by side, during exams, practicals, in class, even breaks. We could crack jokes, laugh over each other's flaws, talk about our little secrets, dream about what we want to eat after school even though lessons just started. Oh man, this girl is special, she is unique, she unlike the rest, just stands out like a lotus among the surrounding mud.

Just now, i received an sms,"i miss you". I feel the exact same way. We have been with each other every single day, up to more than 6 hours, in school toiling through all the misery we could ever feel in that instituition prison. Now, we are both left alone to face it. Struggling and heart-breaking at first, but we always encourage each other to press on, for " as long as we live on, there is hope", one very infectious principal that we composed, and obeyed.

Then i saw that card she handmade for me for my birthday. I read it all the time, over and over again. How much joy it brings. Not those typical wishes you expect, but words that came from understanding and experiences that could touch the heart at such an immense degree, is breathtaking.

I remembered all the sweet and bitter times we shared, every single one of them. Even till now, it never fails to make me laugh when i think of how silly and awfully carefree we were back then.

I remember the times where we will take turn to sleep while chanting to each other on Social Studies/Geography notes."Now my turn,10 minutes!!"

I remember the times where we take turn to block each other from the teacher because her/his lessons (Physics/Geography/Higher Chinese) were so dead boring that a 10 minutes felt like 2 hours!"Eh, block me, block me"

I remember the crazy times we had every single time before music starts.I bet we all turn crazy because Monday was a killer day, we had both higher chinese and music all pack in one, it was sure hell day for both of us!!We will hold tamborines and shakers and start dancing all over the entire music room, literally like IMH patients on the loose!!

I remember the times we will stare at each other's food because it just looks too appealling and we want a bite although we already have our own share.

I remember the times, where we will share whatever we buy, especially FOOD!"you fu tong xiang.."

I remember the times, when the hair-pulling times of composing music was like a living death sentence, it was like an insane period for insane people.We thought that we must be crazy to even take the subject.

I remember the times when even after National Day, we had to go back to the much hated IT Resource Room, to complete the 3 minutes composition which seems like it needed a lifetime and maybe a brain 1000x better to complete it, and i actually munch 3 rolls of that chocolate roll that was given out as snacks on that day!!

I remember the times that we will camwhore together, during music lesson in the IT room. We even took pictures during an exam!

I remember the times where you hated my hair like crazy. It was like a long whip that always seem to find its way into your mouth."HWEEMIN YOUR HAIR!!"

I remember the times that we sat on the deck of the bumper boat from Pulau Ubin, saying that we will not bow down to the monster of O levels."WE WILL DO WELL FOR O LEVELS, WE CAN DO IT!"

I remember the times that we will compare lunchbox food, and stand in awe of it.

I remember the times where you will ALWAYS drink your water on the same side where i sat, when there was no one on the other side.

I remember how we will chant to each other on the phone, and it even resounded in my ears like some broken recorder even after the exams.

I remember the times where we will stare at the clock waiting for 2pm."5 minutes more.."

I remember the times of how much WE LOVE CHEMISTRY!

I remember the times where we will squeeze out every single opportunity we had to eat Fish Noodles "must add more soup and noodles!!"

I remember the times when you approached Ms Feng with every bit of courage you inched out of yourself

I remember the times where we will put our legs under the lab benches

I remember the times, you will always find the chance to sneak up and touch my leg!!!

I remember the times where we will leave each other speechless after a debate

I remember the times where we shared one husband together. We love HAYDN!

I remember the times when we studied at the National Library and you will always love staring at the DHL hot air balloon every single time we were there.

I remember the times where we will get a lot of chilli and pour it into our ban mian. Although it weird, but we love it.

I remember the times you always help me bring tissue

I remember the time when we had earth day and we will sneak into the toliet to enjoy the fan.

I remember the times when you insist on going to the second floor toliet because you didn't like the one on the first level!!

I remember the times when we were like each other's music radio channel, singing because i think our brains has malfunctioned from all the crazy work and studying!

I remember the times you said your ambition was to be an opera singer and mine was to be a rocket scientist

I remember the times we swear by our "bible", the A Maths Textbook!

I remember the times we will always drag me to your locker because you needed to take out some books.

I remember the times i always nag at you because you almost literally leave every single book in school.

I remember the times on how we will squeeze every space we had in our TKAM to write our notes.

I remember the times when we were afraid of Ms Loh, because she love to walk around the class, all over the place, even places we can't see her but can hear her!!

I remember the times you always say that when i bad mouth a teacher, he or she is definitely nearby, which obviously isn't a good thing

I remember the times you always nag at me of my absolutly bad time management, which is something i am struggling but am trying to correct. However, we agreed on one condition that whoever is later, have to buy sweets

I remember the times when you could finish one whole packet of the "hamburger" sweet in one day. Also, once with the strawberry hello pandas, when i gave it to you so that we can share, i said to myself that maybe it was the last time i could see it!!

I remember the times where you were so afriad to use your house rubbish chute because it seems to be frequented by cockroaches, which i fear too!!

I rememeber the times where we will stone in the steambath of your house, and run out most of the time fearing we will dehydrate!

I remember the times when you were learning how to swim with Xinhua, that till today, i still have the video in my computer and phone!! Also, how i manage to skilfully fall into a dent in with many pots of plants that got me cut on my leg

I remember the times where we went swimming right after sec 2 EOYs to celebrate. I swear to you, you are the first one outside my family to see me swim!!

I remember the times when you encouraged me to take up ballet again, and yet again, you are the only one, other than my family, who have EVER seen me in leotard and stockings!!

I remember the times that we could spend hours talking on the phone, even when we see each other every day, and also arguing for a long time just to decide who shuts the phone first

I remember the times we always said "hello" to Sally whenever we walk past the museum

I remember the time we acted as tourist visiting Chinatown!! I can never forget the long cloth thing you had to wear because we were entering a temple!

I remember the times when i asked about getting a ear hole. Your reply would be "why pay money to get a hole?" Ok, for that you leave me speechless

I remember the times where we will support each other when we are performing on stage

I remember the times we doze off during lessons unknowingly

I remember the times, where you love Barney & Lee Jiawei so damn badly, you wish you were them.

I remember the times when you will always call your nose a strawberry with too many seeds!

I remember the times where you always nag on how messy my hair was, and i got to agree, when i was looking at some pictures, why in the world was my hair like that!!??

I remember the times you said that you had to use that OP bag even though it had a rather bad tear and your grandma helped to sew it back

I remember the time when instant noodles became a total wait of 30 minutes with the use of fire i think was so minute that i didn't know it existed. Not to foget, it was salty and there was a one minute interval to every single stir??!A lot of water was needed after that!

I remember the times where i will steal your bottle for a drink because i always forgotten to bring mine. In fact,mine was also too heavy.

I remember the times that you said my bottle was a good "chopping" item as it was big and outstanding and we could find our seat in the canteen quite easily

I remember the time where we will eat yong tau foo with prawn noodle soup and also to hunt down every friday for Kuay Chap!!

I remember the time when Fiona's dog pounced on you and i went screaming away!

I remember the times we had to share a jacket because it was so freaking cool when it rained!

I remember the times you always say how much i slang when i give a speech or do a presentation

I remember the times we toiled several night and day for the Hostel project.

I remember the times on how we will hunt down Ms Wong and "suffocate" her with our A maths Questions

I remember the times where we will go to the Grandstand during Common test, because the class is too noisy and the grandstand just seems fun to be at!

I remember the times when we will visit the gym and Ms Liew and talk about how fit she is!

I remember so much, and i miss her much much much more.

I remember the times she was there for me
I remember the times we did everything together
I remember the times when you had countless nickname: Xiao Hong(China accent), Big Butt Barney etc.
I remember the times we will say the things we are sad off
I remember the times we competed on who came earlier in the morning
I remember the times on how we will always run for assembly when the march is already playing
I remember the times and how i always forgets to tap card and we have to rush down to do it
I remember the times when you will always need to go to the toliet every time before assembly starts

I remember and think of you all the time and the things we did, i miss you and love you as my best pal. My one true partner : Kwek Jia En